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Back to the studio
Jul. 29th, 2006 04:20 amMany hours tonight working on the scheduling system. This was a treat for me, being able to work with code again after many days of business drudgery. I think all the code is there, and it compiles. I'll deal with trying to run and then debug the thing while the sun is up, later.
Been thinking about what to do to punch up my life. No matter what happens, I need to inject some variety into it. (If I get a job, the job won't count.)
A little earlier I sent my regrets to someone about participating in a show that I really would like to help with. The thing is, though, that I want to get back into The Gameshelf again, and in order to do that I have to be very careful about how I'm going to be spending my time.
Hmmf. This is all quite foolish, of course; I feel a little dizzy thinking about the stress I'm setting myself up for. But I am clever, and know myself well, and have many excellent friends. I will do the right things.
I have many ideas about how to streamline the show and the editing process to make both faster and the final product better. I've been itching to make it all happen again.
I feel completely, even actively ambivalent regarding the work question. The thought of having money again makes me happy, but the idea of working for someone else for most of the week... crushes me. It's impossible not to make it feel like giving up. My total feelings about it fluctuate, and often I'm actually quite hopeful that I can make it all work. But even then, I'm haunted by that feeling. Nothing to be done.
Been thinking about what to do to punch up my life. No matter what happens, I need to inject some variety into it. (If I get a job, the job won't count.)
A little earlier I sent my regrets to someone about participating in a show that I really would like to help with. The thing is, though, that I want to get back into The Gameshelf again, and in order to do that I have to be very careful about how I'm going to be spending my time.
Hmmf. This is all quite foolish, of course; I feel a little dizzy thinking about the stress I'm setting myself up for. But I am clever, and know myself well, and have many excellent friends. I will do the right things.
I have many ideas about how to streamline the show and the editing process to make both faster and the final product better. I've been itching to make it all happen again.
I feel completely, even actively ambivalent regarding the work question. The thought of having money again makes me happy, but the idea of working for someone else for most of the week... crushes me. It's impossible not to make it feel like giving up. My total feelings about it fluctuate, and often I'm actually quite hopeful that I can make it all work. But even then, I'm haunted by that feeling. Nothing to be done.